Author Archives: newstart4liz

Letting go and letting Mimi go to Jesi

Every morning my heart breaks. Every morning I wonder. Will I have to force the medicine in? Too many days of pills hidden in clumps of baby food and she wont eat the beef in beef broth I serve up … Continue reading

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Caring for our Pets from the Spirit Realm.

At seventeen Mimi, the little Shih Tzu that Jesi welcomed into our family on December 20 2012 has lived longer than Jesi ever did. Somehow there seems no justice in this…. yet somehow I believe Jesi has something to do … Continue reading

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Anniversaries … Going on Without Her

For Kari it started in the summer, looming like the forecast of an oncoming hurricane, still distant but with 100% certainty of landfall. On a specific date: the location, her heart. For me, I only became aware of it in … Continue reading

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The Around and Around of Grief

I’m angry. Its early morning and I open my eyes to a foggy grayness that I sometimes sense inside my head. But not today. Today I wake up instantly alert… and angry. I feel the anger in my ribs as … Continue reading

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Out of the Light of Chaos

This is what I had been waiting for. I am standing in the kitchen my hands wrapped around a mug of coffee. It is early, or it seems so as I am still waking up. I am frustrated that the … Continue reading

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Losing her Over and Over Again

I sit at the traffic light watching the young girl in black stretch pants and sneakers cross the road with her mom. She has hair which almost reaches down to her waist. Some would call it blonde. To me it … Continue reading

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A Twin, Alone on her Birthday…

Imagine being eighteen and dreading your birthday. The dread arrives weeks before your birthday does. It arrives on wings edging its way through your dorm room window, sliding in a crack open against the stuffy heat of the college heating … Continue reading

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Turning Hallmark Traditions into something Special with Spirit…Lessons from the other side.

I didn’t look up when I spoke. The words sort of tumbled out from I don’t know where. “Why don’t you make him one anyway,” I said. My voice was soft, sort of questioning. “Where would I send it?” she … Continue reading

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Holiday Traditions and Memories.

In the spirit world time does not exist. Everything happens simultaneously. The striking of midnight, signifying the changing of the years, is inconsequential. So as I sit here thinking about how with each year passing I move further and further … Continue reading

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Christmas Memories, Jesi and the love of Mimi.

Five days before Christmas marked the fourth anniversary of Mimi’s arrival into our family. I still remember as if it was yesterday; the day we rescued her from the Animal Rescue League of Boston. Three weeks prior to signing her … Continue reading

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