Tag Archives: love

A Twin, Alone on her Birthday…

Imagine being eighteen and dreading your birthday. The dread arrives weeks before your birthday does. It arrives on wings edging its way through your dorm room window, sliding in a crack open against the stuffy heat of the college heating … Continue reading

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Our Jesi Memorial on 9/11

  For the days leading up to this, the second anniversary of Jesi’s passing, I have felt a wash of emotions. Sitting in yogic pose on the edge of the pond three days ago, I remember the unthinking comment of … Continue reading

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A Message from Jesi.

When I decided to attend the workshop led by world renowned Spiritual Medium James Van Praagh I didn’t know what to expect. I remember sitting in my car on a cold March morning six months after Jesi passed away crying … Continue reading

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It was a Saturday evening in late September. The year, 2010. Jesi sat in her wheelchair in the family room surrounded by balloons. All the balloons were orange and all were bobbing up and down on the carpet amongst a … Continue reading

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In Gratitude

Thank you all who sent in such heart warming memories and happy memories of Jesi (see post Honor Jesi on 9/11…comments) in so many different aspects of her too-short life. You will never know what joy (and a few tears) … Continue reading

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Guiding Us Home

When I first moved to Boston over fifteen years ago I suffered from Seasonal Affective Disorder. As soon as the leaves started turning yellow and orange and red I would freeze anticipating what was to come. But when Jesi got … Continue reading

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With Her, Without Her.

The suitcases are bought down from the attic. Alan holds them up asking me which would be best for Kari, which one for Chris? I answer in monosyllables. I do not mention our child who no longer needs a suitcase, … Continue reading

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Revisiting Australia with Jesi

The night Jesi’s oncologist called and told me the leukemia had returned my travel bag was sitting on the floor of my apartment. I had already tossed in a few books, some gifts for my family in Australia, summer clothes … Continue reading

Posted in Australia, Australiana, Love and Suffering and Letting Go, Memories and Revisiting Places after Losing a Child, Photographs, Writing | Tagged , , , , , | 7 Comments

Dear Readers…….

Thank you for your wonderful wonderful words of encouragement for our family and for your continued love of Jesi as she transcends the suffering that so drained her body. Tears roll down my cheeks knowing we will never see her … Continue reading

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Bringing Peace and Goodwill to Jesi

Every Tuesday evening at about 10 pm I open my browser window to wvew.org, Brattleboro’s Community Radio station. I didn’t know how to livestream before (and that may sound weird in this day of computer and information technology) and I … Continue reading

Posted in Bone Marrow Transplant, Brattleboro Community Radio, Childhood Cancer, Family Support, Friendship and Healing, Photos, Popular Music for Strength and Healing, Radio Play, Teenager Cancer Sufferer, Writing, wvew.org livestreaming for healing | Tagged , , , , , | 2 Comments